Weight problem?- Fasting to Freedom (Day 1 & 2)

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So the church where I go to, (VCF) is having a mid-year prayer and fasting from July 3-5. However, I've decided to start a little bit early. It's supposedly 2nd day today, but I'm already on my 5th day. There are a couple of reasons why I decided to start early, and one is because I have been struggling with my weight since like forever. Well not forever, but for a long time now. Some people might take this problem lightly, some might even laugh at it. But to those who are overweight, it is a battle that could go on for years. It's not the kind that you can just pray for today and move on the following day and not as simple as following a diet routine then you can instantly move on with your life. It's actually a bigger battle than most people realize. 

To me, weight problems goes beyond the physical aspect. There are emotional and spiritual things that needs to be resolved. Insecurity, resentment, frustrations, lies from the enemy, etc. are just a few from the other things that people who suffer from this bondage experiences. In fact, even those who were overweight before and have lost weight could still experience the same insecurity and the same frustration if the deeper issues of the heart are not resolved. 

If I could just share a little bit about my life, I've been overweight ever since I was a kid. I lost a significant amount of weight after college however, those who were close to me know that even if I look physically healthy on the outside, I wasn't on the inside. I was still insecure and frustrated the same way as before. Losing weight did not really give me the peace and joy I expected to have. (I will talk about this in another vlog) I believe that this is because though I was treated on the outside, I wasn't on the inside. Eventually, I went back to my old eating patterns and gained all the weight that I lost. 

Ever since, I've been asking the Lord to free me from this. It's not that I haven't tried losing weight again, of course I did. And each time, i just fail. I believe that those who are struggling with weight problems could relate to me. That it's just a cycle of eating, dieting, failing, then starting over again. So after a lot of praying and meditating, I realized that its not really the physical that needs help, but more than that, our emotions. The Lord showed me that my behavior and lack of self control is because of a bondage in emotional eating. It is like being a slave to food that no matter how hard you try, you are chained to this bad eating pattern.  In our world today, eating out of emotions has always been taken lightly. Like it's not a problem that people should take a look at and resolve. In fact, in most cases it is encouraged. I know that majority of people today are struggling with this because as you can see, a lot of people are overweight. However, this is a topic that most people don't talk about. People these days don't categorize overeating as wrong. Again, in our society this is a problem that's taken so lightly. But to me, it's not. I know its damaging effect not only to a person's physical aspect but also to our emotions and most importantly to our souls. 

In my vlog below, I'll be sharing my meditations and all the things that the Lord revealed in my heart. I know that some people may not relate to this. But to those who can relate, I do hope that this vlog’s message will help you find your freedom in Christ. Journey with me as I find my way to freedom too.. #onepromiseaday